Photography in my heart

I feel so blessed. I have a couple of appointments lined up, as well as another baby portfolio building session this Saturday. I am praying more people I know (friends, family, etc) will be asking me to do portrait shoots. As my mother said to me, "In His Time.."
Why is it so difficult for me to believe that? I have hope and promise for a future, the Bible says so, but I sometimes think I dream too much.
I have truly let it go in His hands...I only want my photography to bless Him and others, however that may come.