Look To The Sky

I have changed my blog name from Close To Home to Look To The Sky for two reasons...

1. It's probably not good to have my photography name my personal/friend/family blogsite name.

2. A lot has gone on in the past few days, and LTTS reminds me of WHOM has helped me get past a very tough time.

Yesterday, Friday, was on of the best and more joyous days I have had in a very long time. I had a mental state of emergency this week, that required immediate medical attention, and help from my husband and parents. I am very thankful for the prayers from friends and family, because I KNOW that is what made the difference for me BEFORE the medication kicked in. Really, the medication change would not be kicking in until probably tomorrow, but I have so much improvement in my thinking at this time.

Thursday, Rich called off thirty minutes before he had to go in so he could take care of me and the kids. He was such a servant.

Friday, since I could not be alone, my dad called off and picked up the kids and I for the day. First, we went to a trail that was beside a train track. The kids loved it, and even more when the "choo choo" went past.

Then, so I would not disappoint Ella on her 4th birthday (which was Friday), he drove us up to the mall so she could "Build A Bear." My friend Katie, and her baby, Autumn, met Ella and I in the mall and Ella created her perfect Hello Kitty, skates and all. She had a blast.

Then, my dad took the kids home and left me up at the mall for girl time with my friend. Katie had offered to take me home, bless her heart, so that's what she did after a couple hours of just walking around. She could tell there was a difference in my voice, and I was so happy to hear that.

Today, Rich is driving me, with the kids, to the wedding I need to photograph, which is about an hour away, past Niles. While I am photographing the wedding, which is a very small one, no pressure, he'll take the kids to a park. Then, come get me, and then we'll eat out. I hope Chipotle..but maybe not..I don't think the kids would be too wild about that. We may have to go to 2 places to get food for the four of us.

I have more to say but for now, here are some pictures from the trail!

Almost Four Party

Saturday was Ella's birthday party. We had about 8 little girls..friends from school, from church, a cousin, and a former neighbor. Oh, and their mom, too. All so sweet, all so endearing in their own special way. They played hair, nails, and makeup. That was the theme, and wow, did they just eat all that up! My strawberry swirl cake turned out good, double layered even. And, Ella enjoyed being with her friends, and, of course, opening up her gifts. I think her favorite is the Fur Real Tiger she received from Grandpa and Grandma with Bear and Cheyenne (we identify grandparents by the name/s of their pet/s HA!). We had a mini celebration for Philip following Ella's party. Uncle Bill, Aunt Lisa, and Abby were up for the day, and the great grandparents were there too, so it was good timing for just a family celebration for Philip (his birthday is May 2nd, and he'll be TWO!!!!).

Here are a few pics, though I did not get many, nor did I get many good ones. It was tough doing everything. I was blessed to have my mom "host" the party at her house though! Thank you mom and dad!

I am still recuperating from that day. I feel as if I am in a desert, really. I don't feel well at all and am just plugging away. Fibro does that to you..wipe you out after certain events. I am praying for a healing soon, especially for the next several days.

Some serious, sappy stuff

beforebed

My husband and son now like to view this as a wonderful evening , before bed, ritual. I hope you don't tear up as much as I do!

How Wonderful is THIS?!?!?!?!

My brother just emailed me something great! A link to well...creating a book about your blog, photos, anything!!!! Go figure! Can't wait to try it! I hope our tax return comes soon!

GO HERE: BLURB

Easter Day

The kids loved their Easter basket hunting at home, and the special message at church. As well as the famous Easter Egg hunt for all the Sunday School children. My parents had baskets for Ella and Philip right after church, and from there we went to Rich's mom and dad's for dinner with family. It was a busy and long day, of course.

The music at church was definitely spirit led and filled. It was a blessing to many.

The past few nights I have finally been able to fall asleep and stay sleep for the most part. I am so glad about that. It makes everything more difficult when you are more weary than usual.

I am reading a book from a free box at church..about Islam. I am always interested reading things like this, from a Christian author's perspective, of course. Helps me stay somewhat intellectual!

This coming Saturday is Ella's 4th birthday party. I have lots to do, and I am praying for a nice turnout for her. What a fun time they'll have!

The eyes have it

A Love for Tea

Monday, at the park and muddy!

Let's Go Fly A Kite

It was a perfect day to fly Ella's new Hello Kitty kite. We had a blast. I was so impressed with her ability to do this. And, I had so much fun! Maybe more fun than her!

Some memories as of late...

Ice cream with Philip at McDonald's, just with Mommy.

Two trips to McDonald's JUST for a few Wizard of Oz toys..a little bit too obsessed, maybe?

Playing and singing "Friends" with our song leader, Diane, for offertory last Sunday.

Two days in a row staying up until midnight, watching Blood Diamond completely two nights in a row. A VERY good movie, in my opinion. Rich says I probably like it because of my anthropology background. True!

Getting back on track with my medicine so I can be myself.

Spending lots of time with my wonderful children outside.

Having a little girl who loves no matter what.

Having a sweet little boy who loves to repeat his sentences over and over again.

My grandparents spent beautiful moments and hours with their great grandchildren this week...grandma even gave them a bath Sunday night.

We went to our first small group from church at a wonderful couple's house, and had a very nice time. Can't wait for next week's get together!

A few new tops courtesy of my mom and dad, from Cato's.

Watching the Wizard of Oz with Ella.

Buddy's playing his harmonica so well this week!

My Favorite

Honestly, I have had a couple of tough emotional days, so this is the best I can do and something that will lift me up. I will probably write some information about Rich and I's busy weekend, but here is the most favorite photograph of my collection so far. It's from Easter last year. I need prayer that I can find the actual CD I saved this on, as well as the other Easter pics. I am frantic..looking everywhere twice!

Ella and her "boyfriend," Alex, Easter Morning 2006

baby girl autumn at 6 months

A photo from Monday at my friend Katie's. She is so adorable..the only bad thing was that when we got there, Philip was so clingy and truly upset!

connections

Some days, I feel so disconnected to people. Those days are highlighted by the mental fog and fatigue from fibromyalgia and depression, and body pain...like last week, and tonight. It's a terrible feeling, and I don't know if since I had lots of companionship/friends in the past, it has been taken away the last year for a reason God is not telling me yet! I have been dedicating myself to reading the Bible every day without fail. I was challenged by a Christian speaker, to do so, and also, I really do feel lonely. It is a help, but that loneliness is still there. I am working on it though.

Every day, I feel lonely (I accidentaly wrote looney and had to rewrite that, but I do feel looney, too!). The frustration behind this feeling is great, and creates doubt, and sends me in a never ending cycle. I am very thankful for my mom and dad (who will be reading this, too, of course) for praying for me every day and have the wonderful ear of listening to me every day at perhaps odd moments of their workday. I don't know what I'd do without them.

I do wish my connections were better. Sometimes, I feel it's me. My inability to just be the super mom. And more than that, that my depression and fibromyalgia scares people off. It can be more than I can bear.

But then, I realize, that I can truly understand others who feel lonely, too. And be completely thankful for a friend reaching out to me...my friend, Amy Brungard, from church, called me last week to see if I would take photographs of her foster children (which I've done before) and the siblings of the one. I said, Sure! She told me she'd have lunch for me, too. So, Saturday, I spent four hours at her house in fellowship and doing something I love...taking pictures of children. I was so attracted to their eyes, especially the ones of the two little girls. I can't post these pictures, of course, but there is one I want to describe to you. As the two little girls were sitting on the couch,their beautifully braided hair side by side, and arms around each other, I went around to the back, and took several of them sitting there together. No faces, just the backs. Their arms together in a sweetness of friendship and sisterhood. Their hair so exquisite, even with a few stray hairs here and there. Little flowers invested themselves within the crests of the braids. Just beautiful. My heart ached, however, knowing that they have had a difficult life, but are now in a loving home.

It's in doing things for people, I find myself finding more joy than when people do something for me. I believe that is how God made it to be, but sometimes, that loneliness brings me down. Not always, but sometimes. At that time, it is a greater thing to reach out, than to be dwelling on yourself.

I have to mention that the Brungards are the only people whom I know that have an entire road named after them. It's probably 4 street blocks long at least. A family heritage piece for sure!

As long as I am mentioning some additional things, music night went well. I am so impressed at the dedication of people to attend something like this and of those musicians that were involved in creating a wonderful evening of music. I saved the Pastor for last, as it well may be his last music night ever at our church, since his retirement is soon to come in May. My husband was a great help, and spoke several times during the service, bringing the songs and people together.

I have been very sorrowful that my little boy is turning two years old soon.

I am excited that Ella is turning four.

My grandfather is in a skilled nursing facility at the moment, in Salem. I need to visit him but finding the chance has been difficult. He is very weak and discouraged.

Yesterday, during the day, I felt mentally clear so I rid up clutter, ALL of it, in the kitchen. It was a proud moment for me when my husband noticed. He's been wanting this to happen for awhile, but circumstances for me hinder it. He understood that of course, but was delighted anyways!

Entertainment Contemplation

Sometimes, I have checked myself on what shows I watch on T.V. For instance, I used to really like ER and CSI. However, since children, I have not kept on with these for several reasons. I dislike the themes in ER and the in-depth and detailed scenes in CSI really bother me. That's not to say I don't watch them, just not frequently like I used to. And, I think that is okay. Maybe. Maybe I should NOT watch them. I am getting tired of what is on television. There are a couple of other shows that I am a little bit into but probably shouldn't be. Just this week, I realized that when I have summarized in my head what goes on in these shows, and movies, too, it makes it raw and real. I just don't like the facts anymore, and I don't think it would be pleasing to Him. I have had a hard time figuring out what is good entertainment. What should we be entertained with? I am not sure, but I honestly have a hard time with letting myself be entertained, or having fun sometimes. Just thinking out loud here!

A story in remembrance of Grandma (written a year ago)

Blessing by the CemeteryBy Amy Russell
I never expected that visiting my grandmother's gravesite would become one of the most blessed moments I have being a mother. Two weeks prior, family and friends had gathered to celebrate the life of my grandmother. She had lived a humble and selfless life through serving others rather than herself. The days after her death would be challenging for me- she was the first grandparent of mine to pass away. The knowledge that she walks with Jesus was comforting. However, I needed to see her grave and was anxiously planning that day.
As I set a schedule for going to the cemetery, I would have my husband stay home with our ten month old baby boy. Ella and I would first go see her friends. Then, to the gravesite. That morning as we prepared for our outing, conversation held instruction on being respectful and quiet. Ella, being almost three, was not a quiet, or still, little girl. I admit I wondered why I thought taking her would be the best thing to do, being I knew her energetic personality, but something, or Someone, within me told me to press on with this bright little girl.
So off I went with a small chatterbox in the back seat who anxiously awaited spending time with her friends from church. I kept sneaking glances at her through the mirror and prayed for the next few hours to go smoothly.
And they did...more than I had ever expected. The time at the playground was spent without any timeouts, bumps, or bruises. This was almost nothing short of a miracle in my book.
As we drove away from the playground my heart began to pound. In just minutes we would be standing beside my grandmother's tiny grave. It was almost more than I could bear. After parking the car inside the cemetery, Ella and I walked hand in hand to the place I knew my tears would finally burst. I knelt as I told Ella that Great Grandma was in heaven at that moment. My little girl chose that moment to look up into the sky. And so I did, too, and we took in the clear blue sky. "Up there?" her voice inquired with a whisper. "Yes, Sweetie. We came here to remember her in a very special way," I told her. Ella turned her head towards mine. "Mommy?" She placed her petite hands on the sides of my face. "Don't cry Momma. It's okay." Then, she rested her head on my shoulder and wrapped her arm around my neck. "I wuv you, Momma." Her whispered words of encouragement and love lightened my heart. I breathed the scent of her hair and felt the warmth of her body. I don't know if Ella will ever know what those innocent tender words did for me. I knew God had planned this moment for my daughter and I to experience Him, and Him alone. Even more, He used my spirited almost three year old to minister to me, her own mother. The result was a woman who felt like she accomplished one of her goals in life- being a positive influence on her child so she would show sensitivity and compasssion towards other people. Ella did that, for me, and I felt fully refreshed to live my life so she could see Jesus in return.
I hope my grandmother was able to see or hear those few moments in the cemetery. If she had, I know she smiled and gave one of her famous giggles.

A Record Blogging Day

I might as well continue to do at least one more blog. This blogging today has kept me together, really. I have lost it several times today, just getting through the day. Ella stayed home from school as she complained about a stomach ache. The two kiddos have been relentlessly needing me and touching me.

It is time for my yearly get away. Last year, my darling husband dropped me off to the Dutch Inn after the kids' combined birthday party (so it really IS getting close to that time). I stayed in a suite, and had strawberry pie from the Dutch House, and just had a wonderful time reading novels, etc. I sure hope once the tax refund comes I can do this again. Money well spent, although this time I'd probably not get a suite!!

I am praying my DARLING husband reads this....and gets the hint!

I'm trying to figure this out..

I think this is what I'll do, with occassional specials.

Option #1: Session fee of $50, includes time, one hour photoshoot, and post processing your digital pics, and online proof gallery.Print costs (all luster coated, 8x10 and up on matt board for strength)
8 wallets $10
4x6 $5
5x7 $10
8x10 $20
11x14 $35
16x20 $45
Storyboards begin at $35

I am excited about something I was asked to do on Saturday. My friend at church became a foster parent awhile back. I took pictures of their little boy at that time, just as a gift for them, and then of the next boy they had to add to their foster family. Well, she asked me to take pictures of their first foster child's siblings! The foster parent that has the siblings saw her pictures, and wanted some too. I was honored. Also, my friend now has a newborn baby to take care of too. It'll be a busy afternoon, but such a wonderful experience. This is for their eyes only...no portfolio building for me from the foster children, and that's alright. I am just happy to provide some pictures of their children as they have them, whatever period of time that may be!

Piggy

What a picture can do for a mom..bring her joy in a low moment!

Where would Jesus go

If he were here today for a visit. I don't think we can assume we really would completely know the answer to that. I would think he'd go where the needy and sinners are. I believe that is, well, everywhere. In your own home, there are people lost. In your church, there are people lost. In your town, on your block, everywhere you go. Jesus did more than what was written in the gospels, and where he did go, and the people with whom he ministered too is vast and complext. Tax collectors, prostitutes, children, the sick...the list goes on. Do we do the same? I think we are called where God leads us. You can't say that as the body of Christ that we all have the same gifts, or leading...except for the one to love one another, and go to the end of the earth. A true, faithful pastor wants sinners at his church. A true, faithful Christian wants to reach the sinners, as well. I believe that there are many avenues to do this. It doesn't have to be at church, it shouldn't be just at church. I believe church should teach that and some actually do. We need to be showing God's love throughout the week, in the workplace, around our neighborhood. Not everyone will be called to meet people where they are in the slums. There are those who willingly do that, and by doing so, they can send a fresh wind of faith to us at church. It is tough to realize that in many religions church is just a place to meet. To use rituals as tools in their walk of faith. That is a fact. But, there are people who joyfully attend to serve the Lord where they are called. I don't believe one place is more or less important. We should not judge others by where they minister. It's between God and the individual. I believe someday that God will call us to the Salvation Army church. Rich and I have felt that tug for awhile, since we've moved to Salem. We search with prayer and petition for the next move. It's a breaking out of the norm for a church, but where He leads you should go.

Two books to read if you want some eye openers: Jim Cymbala's book (Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire) about the beginnings of the Brooklyn Tab. Church and a novel by Angela Hunt, called The Debt.

These days

have just been plain tough. It's mind over matter. The body I have just isn't function very well for me, and it is hard just to get lunch for the kids. I had a great, feel good day Monday. I felt normal, no fibromyalgia problems, but since Tuesday, it went downhill.

However, I am glad I pushed myself out to praise band practice last night. I never go, really. So imagine the suprise! The kids went to my parents and had a great time. I had about 15 minutes just to play anything I wanted with no one around, and played some Easter hymns. I love both hymns and choruses, but probably hymns more. Then, we finally had practice. We had lots to go over, some stuff for the music night Sunday, and then for the R.O.C.K. program we'll be playing for next Saturday. R.O.C.K. stands for Reaching Our Community Kids. This is a prayer vigil/service for the kids in the community that are hooked on drugs, selling them, etc. Usually they have members from Teen Challenge, a tough drug rehab program, talk to. What powerful testimonies. POWERFUL! They came to our church several weeks ago, like they do periodically, and it's power of the blood in the purest form. WOW.

I have been researching things about LDS and Mormons recently, because many of the photographers' blogs I see hint to those religions. I've read an entire book of cults before, and they were included in that cluster, but it's interesting to see what the deep down differences between us as Christians and their take on Jesus and eternity. Very interesting. I feel it's good to be prepared to know what you believe and have an idea of what others believe to. I know least about Catholicism, but I hope to have a grip on that someday. I worked with Muslims in Tennessee, so I have a grip on that, too. It's nice to work my SAHM brain once in awhile!

One year ago

My grandmother Duvall passed to eternity. We miss her!

Today, I found out that my grandpa Duvall is in the hospital, perhaps a heart issue, but maybe more stress.

Please keep the family in your prayers.

This may seem silly to some but..

God blessed my ebay items and ALL 3 sold. I am so delighted. I prayed about this, because I was so frustrated. The thing is, nothing was bid on until today, AND, 2 items weren't bid upon until the last 2 minutes! Talk about holding on to faith!

This money helps with somethings I needed for Ella's upcoming party. Whew! It is a blessing!

I need some help...

I am going to raise my prices for doing photography, probably at the beginning of summer. I feel like now is the time to do that and the advertise, get my official license, etc.

If you think option one or two is better, please leave a comment!!!

Due to demographics, I am not going to go beyond $100 for a session fee. I have researched and MANY photographers do go beyond that, but I don't think that would do well here.

Option #1: Session fee of $50, includes time, one hour photoshoot, and post processing your digital pics, and online proof gallery.
Print costs (all luster coated, 8x10 and up on matt board for strength)
8 wallets $10
4x6 $8
5x7 $12
8x10 $20
11x14 $28
16x20 $35
Storyboards begin at $35

or

Option #2 $65 includes time, one hour photoshoot, time in digital darkroom, and online photo gallery
Prints:
8 Wallets $12
4x6 $10
5x7 $15
8x10 $22
11x14 $30
16x20 $38
Storyboards begin at $35

I am setting my sights high because of the type of photography I do, so these prices show something a bit different. I need to set my prices higher to begin with, because I don't want to be constantly raising them every year. I plan on advertising very well, and I have more confidence in my work now. So, if anyone has an opinion, please let me know.

Someone in Salem has session fees for $35, and sells a sheet of pics, varying in size) fo $7 each. There is no mention for sizes above 11x14's, either. BUT, I think she does those sheets herself, not from a professional photographer printing service. Also, she has a different style, too.

He's a celebrity!

This morning we had the pleasure of listening to thewatkinsfamily at our church for the morning service. They had been to our church last year, and frankly, I think I missed it! So did Rich. Anyways, they are a gospel/bluegrass group, and lucky for us, we got to do the offertory before they performed. We did Nothing But the Blood, with Rich on the harmonica, and me just on piano. Well, halfway during the band's concert, they asked for the harmonica player to come up! I was probably more excited than Rich, I think! You could here the pleasure from our congregation as Rich walked up, nervously, I may add, to play something he never practiced before! But, like someone said later, musicians know musicians..They knew he could do it. So, along with the guitar, bass, and banjo, he played a wonderful harmonica! I was so completely proud. Rich even got a standing ovation from everyone!

They want to keep in touch, and may have some good input on this one guitar Rich has. It's a very old one of his grandfather's, that if he would put the money into to fix up, he could make good money from it. Anyways, the one guy may just buy it from him, run down as it is. Who knows.

The leader, or father of the group, talked to me about just encouraging your children with music. While we discussed that, he mentioned that only after 2 weeks of knowing each other, he and his wife got married. Wow! And after all these years (they have grown children, probably in their 30s?), they are still praising the Lord! What a testimony!

After church, we suprised Rich's sister, along with the rest of the family, with a "non-shower shower." She didn't want one, but we snuck in gifts, disguising the party as a birthday part for Rich's mom, and she WAS pleasantly suprised. Only 2 more weeks or so, and a beautiful little girl will join Aunt Christa, Uncle Joe, and big brother Jake! Yeah! Now, Ella and Sydney won't be so outnumbered with Jared, Jake, Noah, and Philip~ heehee!

Facing the Giants

This is a great movie...we haven't finished it all, but it has turned on the water works. I was supposed to have gone to the church movie night, at our church, to see it, but, we ended up not going. Things happen for a reason, and I know that I was supposed to have watched it tonight. I've had a very emotional day, with doubt, physical weariness, and failure, by my side. I have cried even more while watching this movie, as certain things are said or read from the Bible that are healing the pain in my heart, and the doubt over certain issues.

Philip and Daddy

As you can see, I kept my promise to Philip. He is such a special person in my heart....there is definitely a special, SPECIAL bond between a mother and her little boy. And, as the photographs portray, another special, but different love, between a father and his son.

A nights rest

made me realize I wish to totally pursue my photography, and I will search my heart and His will to see if that is what is to happen this spring and summer, and following. I really don't know how I'd have a sitter consitently for 3-4 days a week, all day. Just not possible. I will have to be content in what we can do in the summer..we have learned how to "not have" since we bought this house, and especially since we have had 2 children. Anyways, I feel better letting that other job go and seeing what is possible for the future with photography.

My doctor increased some medication for me last week and I feel much "brighter." And that will help me along to make decisions and think clearly about relationships, my children, and my desires in photography.

It is a beautiful day here and I am glad to share the sunshine with my two wonderful kids here at home!

A book I wish to read soon

As I traveled to Boardman to have lunch with Beth and Kimmy, I listened to Moody's Midday Connection. They briefly mentioned a book called Amusing Ourselves to Death as the newest Book Club Book. I am very VERY interested in reading this. My husband said he'd probably agree to mostly everything it says. I like books investigating our culture, and breaking it down. I learned to be thoroughly interested in that in my journalism classes in college. I love to de-layer everything about the media, communication, cultural, etc. Anyways, I'll have to call some libraries and find it.

Lunch was wonderful, and a true blessing. I hope that I can do that again with these two friends soon.

I am debating whether or not to apply for a part time job. We'd really would "appreciate" some extra income for 1. my photography pursuits and 2. for things we need to do for the house this summer and the following couple years. I found a job that could work, but I need to figure out sitting for the kids, and someone that can take Ella to school. I could work in the summer, when my parents are off work, but between then and now it'd be tough. Still, don't know if I want to do that work, or just throw myself into my photography and advertise for all children photography (my passion). I guess I need to PRAY!

Birthday Parties and other dilemmas!

This year I am NOT having big party, combined for Buddy and Ella, like last year. It's tough but I am trying to be firm on this decision.

I will have a "beauty parlor" theme for Ella's party next month. JUST girls. ONLY girls. And, I have a huge dilema with church guests. I think I will invite ONE girl secretly and that's it. Otherwise, well..you'd have me in distress because MANY kids and babies being there. We're talking over a dozen kids and then their moms, too, and younger siblings...AGHHHH! Last year, it was close to 40 people, I think!

So, tops of 4 girls from school, one from church, 2 cousins...I think that is it. I am not even inviting the neighbor! I feel bad, but I don't want to be overwhelmed!

Also, a couple of friends with baby girls, and one friend that you just can't have NOT there! :-)

I am not having a party for Philip, just celebrating quietly with family. He won't care a bit!

I am so tempted to not follow through with this plan...please keep me accountable people! HA!

And here are some favor and activity ideas, just so I don't forget them. Lip gloss (already MADE by my sister in law Lisa), Hello Kitty gel pens, HK stickers, HK hairclips...I would like to find sticker earrings and some more hair pretties to use for the beauty parlor theme. And small mirrors, and a big mirror. I think my sister in law Jessica will provide simple Mary Kay samples to use. OH , and nail polish! Can't forget that! They do have teeny tiny bottles available around here.

Food? Hmmm....probably pizza and then some fruit, and then a simple pretty cake. I am not doing bumble bee cupcakes and a monkey shaped cake like last year. I did have fun doing that, but it's a lot of work!

My other problem...I was disappointed by feebay this time around. I relisted, so I am praying that it works this time around. It's very disappointing when you just don't make out. Thus, "feebay."

Someone here just became a hair stylist...

Unbeknownst to me (is that a word?)...Ella took the play scissors into the bathroom with her. She had been cutting paper, supervised of course. She came out.."How does my hair look, Mommy?"

"Fine."

She went in again. And came out with the same question.

Finally, I got it. SHE CUT HER HAIR! She has some really short and different lenght of bangs on the left side of her head. Oh well. Not too bad of a cut, but she needs to have it clipped back.

She learned though. I was not upset at her. I let her see herself in the mirror, and she cried. Lesson learned. Poor thing!

I have to add this to this entry: Philip went on the potty! I about fainted! He's not even TWO! It's probably a fluke, but we'll keep this up hopefully!

Story and Hearts

Next time, I promised Philip I'll post his pictures!

Summer days...her gorgeous smile

I am trying to edit old photos of last year. This is one..blurry but I am tried to enhance it with an "aura." I hope it works!

I sure felt prayers today..I felt much better this afternoon, after a disfunctional morning. And, now, the kids are off to bed. Hoping and praying Philip sleeps all night through. He barely had a nap so we'll see.

Oh, and Yeah, Rich and I completed Raiders of the Lost Ark last night. It only took us 2 nights to watch 1 movie. Pretty good! He liked that one the best..I liked the Crusade one better. It was a nice date, nonetheless, at

home!

I was so shocked.

Check this out.

I am glad the cinema is going to be saved. I was talking to Rich about it the other day...after I saw the "for sale" sign.

**Added later***

My brother wonders if he can go now for free!

They're friends, he and Don. I thought that was a funny thing to say.

Snippets of the last few days

I was able to visit with my friend, Katie, Thursday at the Lazy Bean for awhile while Ella was in school. Philip slept in my arms most of the time, and Katie's little Autumn was awake and so alert the whole time. I had a mocha (ughh reminds me I don't like them) and a muffin, and hot tea (my favorite, my choice at all times!). I would've gotten hot chocolate too, but then I realized I would have spent a lot on just drinks! LOL!

Saturday, Rich went to a favorite music store of his..on the condition that he would stop at Chipotle and get me some food! Yum! So he did. (the store was in Kent).

Sunday, church was canceled. Philip had been fighting a fever, etc anyways, so I wasn't going anyways. Ella had a terrible time with an earache, that left her miserable the whole evening too. I felt so bad.

No sleep for me the past few days..I think 6 hours total the past two nights. Seriously, who can go on that?!

I have the beginnings of a cold, and laying my head down just made it worse, I think. When I pick up a tissue to use, and use it, I sound like that scary farm tractor in Cars when they went tractor tipping.

By the way, Philip and I are terribly disappointed that Cars didn't win an Oscar. It's one of Philip's favorite.

Also one of his favorites, is Jonah (the Veggie Tales version). I have a question about that...I can understand that the veggies don't have hands..I deal with that..but...

I can't figure out how they can get away with clapping?!

Philip had a fever all night again..I wish littles wouldn't get sicker at night!

For the end of the week, I hope to see some other friends..you know who you are!

This weekend is the weekend Rich works...that is always tough on me, but we'll figure out something to pass the time.

I hope everyone has a wonderful start to the week!

What kind of inspiration is there

for someone who desperately needed inspiration? What I mean is, that when you are in dire need of inspiration, you need a lot. And only in God's timing did it come for me two days ago. I was about ready to just throw in the towel with some aspects of my creativity (meaning photography) becuase of my health, mentally and physically, but THEN...

I came across an award winning photopgrapher and her beautiful website and her style spoke so much to me. I connected with what she was saying about her "art" and I know that is how I want to take my photography now. It'll take more persistance, because I am defining what I do, rather than what people want me to do. I am going to show MY style to clients, and if that is not what they want, they can find someone else. Rather than being something that would dishearten me, as usually it happens when I see someone else's photography going well (the human nature thing), it inspired me to no end. And now I know, you CAN be that good. That good of a photographer that your photographs speak emotions to a person. And have the confidence to do it.

I have lots more to learn, especially in post processing, but now I feel I have the right path again. And that God will lead me on!

The Russells Part 2

26. Rich does not really like Tupperware documentaries...he did rent one once and received a lot of laughs for it..by those who came by that night. Just wanted to clarify that one for my wonderful husband! :-)
27. Ella's first movie to see in the theater was Charlotte's Web.
28. I always cry when I see Charlotte's Web
29. Growing up, I loved pretending I was Laura Ingalls.
30. Grandma Snyder let my brother and I tie up her entire living room using yarn. stretching it and tying it from one thing to the next.
31. I have gone white water rafting several times...loved it, fell out once, but that experience probably is well over for me!
32. We plan on vacationing at Beaver Creek (camping) this year.
33. Rich spent many hours in high school and college years building and flying radio controlled model airplanes.
34. Rich thought I was married when he first met me...by the purity ring I had on my finger.
35. I would love to go to Europe or somewhere abroad when I am older.
36. Rich has traveled Europe.
37. My goal for our family as a major vacation sometime is either New England or out West.
38. I'd love to see Mesa Verde and the Grand Canyon.
40. Never feed me onions, mushrooms, or raisins.
41. Everyone else here like raisins.
42. Rich and I split up the housework here pretty well...due to my fibro and his servant like attitude!
43. We live across the street from a nice school playground...pretty handy in the summer and after school hours!
44. My grandmother went to see Titanic with me in the theater...at that point, I think it was the 3rd time I would have seen it. She had a nice time, too!
45. Ella and Philip love their cousin, Abby, and really miss her.
46. Philip has begun working on the computer, too!
47. Rich's mom makes a mean (wonderful) coffee punch that her daughter in law practically begs for when we have family get togethers :-)
48. Rich loves riding his bike..and is able to do that more often these days. Besides his almost daily walks.
49. We continually feel blessed with what we have..from children, family, friends, house...and more!
50. For Valentines Day, I made cards and had my husband pick one of the cards I made to give to me. He had to or else..I loved the card kit too much!

Yesterday in the Snow

A note to my beloved dad...how about this as a new "N.A" name for Ella...Snowdrifter.

And, for Philip, as a result of his playful actions in the snow this week...Snowkicker.

A Picture is Worth A Thousand Words

Rich and I have had our two main wedding photos up in beautiful frames since we were married. Little did we know how much these two photographs convey to two little ones.

Ella knows they are "married" pictures. Buddy knows that is dadda and momma in the photographs.

Ella knows we are happy...she even said so one time.

She says she is going to be married like that sometime. Just like mommy is to daddy.

I am so relieved that we are living examples for these children on how to correctly establish a family...and that these photos, and hopefully future ones, will hold memories and ideas for them to grow properly with.

A true ministry to me today...

This was wonderful to hear...

Some Scrapbooking

25 Things Plus A Picture

I use my blog to communicate with family and friends..and as a way to express myself and keep note of things happening at home for my own records. So..that is why I am on a roll with entries! Please bear with me...

Here are 25 things (part 1 of 4, to make 100) about the Russells...

1. Ella likes to "remote" us now...with her new cd player remote of course.

2. Philip is also called Buddy.

3. Ella created that nickname early on when she couldn't say "baby brother." She said "baby buddy."

4. Miss Meledy is her best friend.

5. I am certain Philip has a crush on Mulan.

6. Rich doesn't have three mandolins..he has 2 plus an octave...ahem...that's an octave mandolin, too! YES HE HAS THREE!

7. I don't practice my music for church Sunday morning...I wing it. Please don't tell!

8. Rich, a dietitian, provides CHOCOLATE for me every once in awhile.

9. Rich is a night owl.

10. Lately, Philip's been too.

11. That means I have to be slightly a night owl.

12. I hate the days when Rich works 9:30-6. Those seem so long.

13. I love making homemade pizza.

14. I love ordering GOOD pizza.

15. Rich has a sweet tooth on occassion, but only at midnight.

16. He likes to watch tupperware documentaries.

17. Our shows that we watch: Clifford, Dragon Tales, Cars, Sesame Street, Curious George.

18. The shows the parents try to watch: the Apprentice, Lost, movies we rent.

19. I think I own the world's tiniest Bible and the world's biggest one.

20. Psalm 46:10 has always been a favorite verse of mine.

21. Ella accepted Jesus as her Savior a little less than a year ago, of her own accord, and interest and questioning. It was a tender moment.

22.I am a worrier.

23. Rich is not!

24. We will probably never have to downsize!

25. Our family is generally a laid back, stay at home type...usually.

There were four in the bed...

and the little one said...haha

Well, since Ella came in first at 2:30, and talked to Daddy, and he let her beside him, I thought...oh well...I guess that's okay.

Then a half hour later, you-know-who came in of course as he always does, and went right to my side and right to sleep in the crook of my right arm. How sweet.

But, now I can't sleep (no suprise). I've had juice and toast..hopefully one piece of chocolate will help me go to sleep!

I don't mind. I am glad my kids are safe asleep..and happy.

Just, kids, don't repeat this tomorrow!!!!!!

Refreshing Weekend

Saturday, Rich and I had the pleasure of enjoying each other's company. We went to Niles for lunch at Chipolte and a couple of hours browsing through Borders Bookstore. Wonderful Wonderful Wonderful!

Sunday's morning worship went well.. I was very nervous of the speaking I had to do as well as the leading the praise and worship. However, the songs and introductions and prayer following the music went well. Yeah!

Today, I am at my in laws. It is a nice change. I love visiting here!

Work In Progress

Well, I finally did some touching up to my website that I haven't touched since October. It still has more work to be done with it, including a better looking gallery of photos put up on the other pages. BUT, I worked hours yesterday and a bit today. If you wish to see what's new there go to www.cthphoto.com

I am unsure if I will keep this hosting site though. I found many wonderful photographers' websites on this very blog site. I don't know HTML though...that is why I am using the site I have now at the moment. It uses a more lay-person ability. I would LOVE to have a gallery that enlarges thumbnails if you click the thumbnail..and music, too. Hopefully that will happen someday. I have a feeling the cost would be too great now!

Now, hopefully, I can begin putting my name out again in a month or two. I know God will give me what I can handle..only. I have a feeling it won't be much and that is okay.

It's hard to learn that you have many limitations, more than you thought, in processing things mentally and "multi-tasking."

Already, though, I have 2 six-month old sessions lined up and a small wedding. I do not wish to add weddings to my speciality, but I agreed to do this ONE for a friend.

Enough about this photography stuff..I don't want it to overwhelm my thoughts today...my husband and I are going on a date. No, not to a movie but out to eat and to a bookstore. I will not say where yet, because, if you didn't figure out, we always end up changing our minds! But, it will be a wonderful day to ourselves.

No show!

I am terribly disappointed. The Last Sin Eater isn't at the the theaters anymore.

I could cry. A simple thing, but when you were looking forward to it, it's hard to accept that you have to find something just as wonderful to do. Maybe it's just as well. Rich and I can buy a magazine each instead. HA!

Reading, Writing, and Arithmetic

Last night was the first parent teacher conference for Richard and I. We learned that our Ella is quite loved by her teacher and the other helpers. She behaves well, is polite, is a little girl in every way, and is very, very intelligent. They say she knows more than most children her age.

Miss Meledy, her teacher, is Ella's "best friend," and when I told Miss Meledy that is how Ella described her to my mother, she was so thrilled!

What a compliment it was to us for Miss M. to tell us we are doing something good and right with the way we are raising Ella...she comes to school so happy and is excited about everything. JOY is how you would descibe her nature at school.

I cannot tell you how happy that made me, a mom, feel..for this week was tough with Ella on occassion. We figured out that may be because she has so much she is processing in her head (because she is so smart) and doesn't know yet how to verbalize her feelings and all her thoughts.

Also, she knows her numbers well (she counts very high when she is here at home) and can write her name with no problem (she's been doing that for several months). Even at church, she is the same. She has been complimented on how well she writes her name and counts, and knows so many letters- how to identify them and write them. We are so proud and thankful for this little girl...even if she wasn't doing so well, we know that she would be enjoying herself and learning little by little, and we would continue to encourage her and be proud of her abilities.

On to other things...when I read, I read fast. I have always been a speed reader. I have tried not to, but still, it happens! So, yes, all the books I got from the library this week are read. The Last Sin Eater, The Scent of Water, a few other ones...oh, and just this morning, the first Mary Higgins Clark book I've ever read, suggested by a friend who likes to read the same Christian novels I do, called Daddy's Little Girl. It was pretty good. I'll have to look for more of her books. I honestly have to go in spurts or phases with going to the library. I cannot set a book down until I have read it, or at least half. I also am particular with what I read. I love Christian novels, and have been stuck on those for awhile. It's my only downtime for my brain...and I love a little romance in them. Not always..I like some authors that put in other elements, too.

Anyways, Saturday, Rich and I are going to see The Last Sin Eater and use our gift card we recieved at Christmas, for Applebee's.

I pray that the kids don't have colds that worsen the next few days. We HAVE to go to church as I am leading the praise and worksip and since we don't have our drummer or bass guitarist players that day, I need Rich there to play too!

It's Valentines Day!

Happy Valentines Day, everyone! We are snowed in today, again. I don't mind. Well, I should say that we had to leave the house yesterday morning. Ella had her ear check up appt (everything is fine!) and since Philip started getting sick and had a fever all night, I had the doctor check him, too. I am so glad she gave us a prescription for him. I don't want to rough it out with him again.

Last night was another fitful night with Philip, so I have not had good sleep. I deal with insomnia anyways, for the most part, so it wasn't anything fairly new.

The kids received their valentine gifts and love them. Each got a flashlight, and Ella got a Disney princess nightlight and socks.

The funny thing about these socks..they were actually for a 1-2 year old and were hose. I didn't know that, there wasn't a tag on them and they were in the GIRL section at Target...so, to make them the knee socks I thought they were, I cut the top off! HA! And they work just fine!

I hope to take some simple candids of them today. I have not felt like taking pictures lately, probably soon, but not yet. Depression is so very oppresive, but I have appreciated the prayers that I know have been sent up. It's so encouraging!

My husband my hero

He treated me with extra special care today.

And now we go in the living room to watch Titanic.

AWWWW... at his own suggestion. I am so excited. I get to rest and have my tea, too.

He really has shown so much love to me through this tough time.

I am so blessed.

New Movie

I can't wait! Check this out. I am excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Another Fox Faith movie! I read the book a long time ago, and this movie sounds like it may have a touch of the suspense from a recent twisted-red-community film that at the moment I can't think of the name. Midnight something or other? Rich and I really had liked that movie, too. Gosh, it's embarrassing to be so forgetful!

Anyways, I think I got my husband excited about it too. So hopefully we'll be going to see it on our next date. It's been awhile!

I saw friends at the bookstore today. That was a refreshing suprise for Rich, the kids, and I. I had a difficult end of the week, and I think God planned for that refreshing meeting. He even let me keep my purse...ha, Kimmy! (see kimmy.inkbleedpress.com for more information about that story! Sorry I can't figure out how to link that!?)

Have a wonderful weekend everyone. Look ahead, the best is yet to come. He is holding you in his hands....it's hard to trust, and be willing to be broken and put back together. But, the best is yet to come.

Bright and Shiny

Today looks like we'll have a bright outlook here in the Russell household. I say this is an answer to prayer.

A couple of days ago I woke up and found my face and neck not puffy anymore (due to thyroid). That was definitely an answer to prayer...from Sunday. There wasn't any change to my meds or anything for that to happen. Praise God.

Also, I found a couple of convicting verses last night. Now, that normally wouldn't put a bright and shiny outlook on a person, but sure would if you are a Christian striving to be more like Christ. And, that is the case here.

Ephesians 5:10 "...find out what please the Lord."

Ephesians 5: 17 "......understand what the Lord's will is."

These verses struck me in a refreshing way. One thing that I know that pleases the Lord is being compassionate towards one another. I need to hold on to those verses for Friday, as I take the children to make Valentines, and fellowship with the other moms at my church.

Also, I feel I need to start up with my duties on the Music and Worship Committee at church... I haven't been to a meeting in a couple of years, due to these small wonderful kids. This Tuesday evening is a meeting, and I will surely try to be there. As the church pianist, I am a part of the committee...so I think we need to make a change and strive to fulfill this duty.

For a small prayer request, for whomever is reading this, Ella did not pass her hearing screening yesterday. I feel this is due to constant fluid and ear infections she has had this terrible cold/flu season. In the spring, she'll be tested again.

Thirty eight dollar discount

Now, that's something to feel good about. For those who don't know, I like thrifting.

I also adore Gymboree clothing...this has been going on for 2 years now, about the time I started to ebay the kids' clothing. It's amazing..you really pay almost NOTHING for brand names after you ebay and get a return!

Imagine my delight when I found a beautiful 18-24 month cream fisherman sweater from a Gymboree '05 fall line for only 60 cents. It had been originally $38! At that same time, I found a summer hoodie for Ella for the same price. I believe that retailed for $30.

I hadn't the courage to write about my find until today. This happened several weeks ago. I thought it was a dream.

I really don't understand why I get so obsessed over the kids clothing. I always find "deals" and I never pay CLOSE to the retail for any brand name. I have no qualms about used clothing either. BUT, I could classify any piece of clothing from G******* if you showed me it! Now that's talent!

I miss my friend, Jen's, preschool helper eye, too. She had a student that wore this brand EVERY day. She would describe the outfit to me and I would tell her exactly what it was called!

Seriously, I think this is humorous, and it is going to come to an end soon (well in a few years!)... Cato's carries a girl's line now! HA~

This post is dedicated to....

my friend Jen! You are far far away in the physical sense, but right at home in spirit. Love you!

Miss you thanks for the email!

Thanks for taking the time to read this tiny blog, too!

I think blonde would be fine...you look good with hair any color!

Being Fruitful

Everyday is a work of art (aka battle) for me. I appreciate so much, the calls of my family, and emails from friends. It is encouraging and supportive.

I mostly appreciate the love from DH...and of course, the love of HIM, who will always give us strength.

I feel that I have gotten strength this week to clean out some areas in the house, and heart. And keep positive throughout the past few days.

It is a good feeling, and greater feeling to know that the Lord listens to our hearts cries.

A Tropical Thought

Our family must be crazy. First, yesterday, Ella wore a swimsuit most of the day.

IT IS BELOW ZERO OUT!

Then, my husband breaks out the ice cream after dinner for desert. All three monkeys of the family ate it (not me).

Today, it is still below zero. Ella sneaked out of her room wearing, well, her swimsuit.

And then she goes around the living room, "swimming." Such character the Russells have!

LASHES

A cold day it is today. I am trying to figure out some things in PSE. Still don't know how to do brushes, or stamps yet. I actually created three birthday cards (with real paper) the other day. Do you know how long it's been since I've felt creative or up to doing something with my concrete scrapbooking supplies? VERY LONG.

It was a triumph.

Hopefully, more triumphs will be in the near future.

Anyways, here is a photo of Ella from fall that I know my mom and dad would like!

My Husband the Comedian

Today at church my friend, Lori, said "I had a dream that I was out eating dinner with someone, at a comedy club, and Rich was the comedian." She also commented suprisingly, "He was really funny, too!"

"Hmmm..." I replied. "He woke me up at 5 am this morning to tell jokes! What a coincidence!"

Here's one of the many jokes I had to listen to very early this morning. It's my version, though..I forget details these days.


A man was telling a bishop about his love life.

"Well, I married one woman, and treated her very kindly.
and, yes, then I married another at the same time, and treated her kindly,
too."

He paused for a moment. The bishop was quiet.

"You could say," the man continued," that I treated them
both the same.

Wasn't that big of me?"